Letting yourself go to discover God

Do you remember the first time you leaped off of the diving board into the deep unknown? When your body plunged far beneath the safety of the familiar surface? I can remember that moment as a wee girl standing with my toes curled around the edge of the dangling board, staring at the bottomless water. With butterflies in my stomach and hopeful smiles from my swim teacher and mom, I found the courage to let go! As I crashed into the unknown water, the fear dissipated as the freedom and joy of the cool water immersed my being. I did it!

Like that little girl standing on the edge of the diving board, I still find myself reluctant to let go and want to stay in the self-preserving zone! If I let go, what may I lose? What will I forfeit? Self-preservation is a strong force that has kept many a man alive. It ensures the survival of an organism and is almost universal among living organisms.  Pain and fear are integral parts of this mechanism. Yet in God’s kingdom we are called to let go of ourselves to embrace something unknown.  This is faith! Faith is a complete trust in God even though the butterflies and beating chest say, RUN! Run for YOUR life!

Matthew 10:39 says, “All who seek to live apart from me will lose it all. But those who let go of their lives for my sake and surrender it all to me will discover true life!” (Passion Translation) Most of Matthew 10 is a big chunk of Jesus’s direct words in red print saying to do what seems counter-intuitive. Let go, when the world says, “Hold on to what you have.” Let go, when it’s not popular. Let go, when God is speaking and you are wrestling on the inside, like the little girl on the diving board.

God is asking me to "let go" of my life to pour into my children in this season. It's scary!  What if I lose myself to the point of no return? Maybe that is what God is asking me to do.  It is faith. Faith that says, I trust You and know that You are good. Jesus promises that when I let go, I will discover true life that is only found in Him. So, I can try to save my life, or jump into the water with Him. I know that whatever I seemingly give-up in this life has joy in the future because God is trustworthy. He just wants to know if I am willing to follow wherever He leads.  Wherever He leads!

What in your life do you need to surrender?  We are all called to individual paths. My path is not your path and vice versa. When we yield to where God is leading us we will discover true freedom and joy as we "swim with Him" into the depths of the unknown, where we lose our plans to follow His. In 2018, I embark to get lost, stop self-preserving, and surrender my plans to find a life that Jesus promised will offer “true life”. Let us trust Him as we take the plunge together.

I would love to hear what God is asking you to let go of in 2018.


“If you don’t go all the way with me, through thick and thin, you don’t deserve me. If your first concern is to look after yourself, you’ll never find yourself. But if you forget about yourself and look to me, you’ll find both yourself and me. Matthew 10:39 (AMP)